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30 Day Weight Loss & Healing #2- The Protocol


Yesterday I wrote out a brief summery of the last 8 years of my story. My story actually extends to the day I was born, as I was born sick and grew up with doctors not able to find what was wrong with me and so they insisted it was “all in my head.” By the time I was about 6 years old my mom had accepted their conclusion and would repeat this to me every time I told her I didn’t feel well, which was always. I’m sure she was exasperated and fearful that she didn’t know what to do to help, but to me it felt like abandonment. I have endured many things in my life and one thing I have learned from every single affliction is this:
Its me and God. No one else.
(I should note that when I say “God” I mean the Godhead, Father, Mother, and the Firstborn, Jesus Christ.)
Mortality has been rough all along and I have never been a child of the world, I’ve always been a child of God. And so its been a very lonely a challenging road but I am grateful for that, because I’ve found it necessary to do all I can every day to know them as thoroughly as I can know them, and to rely on them as fully as I can based on the degree of faith that I have, which I constantly strive to grow. My intent is to be directed by them in all things, because I came here with missions to accomplish and I don’t want to leave anything undone. I’ve known since childhood that I have the gift of healing. That gift has always been part of who I am, what makes up “me.” It is evident to me in my daily life. I see it in my comprehension of reality. I see it in my ability to feel with others, to bear their burdens. I see it in the pains in my heart over injustices. I see it in my instinct to nurture. In my love of affection. I see it in my understanding of how people think and why they feel the way that they do. I see it in my near absence of unrighteous judgement.

If ever i see a person who is not living to the highest degree of their potential, I feel an overwhelming need to help them. I can improve their situation and their experience of mortality and I know I can, through God. This applies to everyone. It is exhausting feeling this way! I often lament to God that its too much for me, but I know there is divine wisdom in it, and so I carry on.

Wow, I did not expect to talk about any of that at all! That was all a very long way of explaining my heart for healing and how I came into the practice of energy healing: I was Divinely led to it. No doubt about it. The story of how this came to me is a lengthy blog post in and of itself. For now I will just say that I know, without the slightest doubt, that this is exactly what God wants me to be doing. I know that it is not by my own power that healings occur. I am a conduit. I have worked hard, and continue to work hard, to obtain knowledge and tools that enable me to be that conduit, but without the power of God the knowledge and tools would be nothing. They have no power, only God has power. I testify that I have witnessed miracles while doing this work, it is far beyond me. Every time I work on anyone, I learn. Every time I work I see power and knowledge beyond my own. It is truly amazing, and truly of God. The Spirit has testified to me over and over and over that this is good and right and exactly what I am supposed to be doing.

The Method I primarily use is called Investigating Health and it was developed by Courtney Beardall. Courtney is one of the most insightful, humble, intelligent, kind, inspired people I have ever known. If anyone out there is feeling drawn to learning energy healing tools and would like a method that is extremely in depth and to the point, I cannot recommend her highly enough. This method is very much Christ centered. There is nothing but goodness and light in it.

As practitioners, we have the opportunity to participate in an advanced class each month. This month’s class was taught by the incredible Ashley Aschilman and the topic was weight loss. Ashley created a very inspired and effective protocol for assisting people in releasing those things that keep us from shedding excess weight. Back in the day when I lost over 70 lbs just by improving my diet and nothing else I wholeheartedly believed that anyone could lose weight just by eating a high raw diet. These past 3 years have shown me that is not true. My Heavenly Parents have taught me yet another lesson in compassion and non-judgement. There are countless reasons why we may have difficulty reaching and maintaining our body’s ideal weight. Some of us can eat super clean and exercise and still not lose much, or worse, keep gaining. There are also those of us who are underweight. Not feeling comfortable in our bodies is the same no matter our size. I have seen the pain that underweight people feel. It is not any different than overweight people. Yet we somehow think its socially acceptable to tease people for being underweight (example: “Do you eat anything other than salad?”) but not people who are overweight (example: We are far less likely to say, “Do you do anything other than sit around eating cheeseburgers?”). Its cruel and it hurts. We ought to feel comfortable in our bodies and we ought to love ourselves and our bodies enough to want to be healthy and well. We ought not to judge others. I took emotional beatings at every turn on my weightloss journey. Being told I was too thin when all I was doing was caring for myself, and when I knew that I was healing and quite literally saving my life was very painful.

This weightloss protocol addresses many issues- hormones, nutritional deficiencies, false beliefs, emotional, mental, and spiritual aspects, sleep, stress. One of my favorite things that I learned is that our bodies have a current “set point” for the weight our body perceives it should be, based on the current corruptions present within it. For example, I am currently 153 pounds. My wight has been climbing and climbing despite my efforts to lose weight. I tested and found my set point is 172 pounds. My body perceives that it needs to reach and maintain a weight of 172 pounds to be safe. My ideal weight, however, the weight that my body is according to its perfect blueprint is 125 pounds. Now, this was difficult for me to accept. I felt most acceptable at 117 lbs, 120 at the highest, and 5 lbs is a lot of weight on a body of that size and height (5’7″). Carrying on with my example here… I have determined my set point to be 172 lbs and my ideal weight as 125 pounds. The question then would be, why does my body feel it needs to be 172 pounds? And that is exactly where we begin with energy healing. We identify the corruptions and correct or remove them. More specifically, we remove them with our intention by the power of God. It works. I have alleviated myself of many maladies and helped many others as well. But as we often recite, “By their fruits ye shall know them.” I am always willing to be the test subject. For the next month I will be testing this protocol on myself and reporting back here weekly. If this helps me, I know it will help you. I am not an easy case and I am working on myself, which can be less effective based on our inability to see ourselves as objectively as we see others. Honestly, maybe it won’t work for me. I have helped many people heal beyond the measure that I myself have been able to heal using food, herbs, and energy. If it doesn’t work for me, I feel confident, based on my experience, it will work for most. That said, this isn’t a magic wand. Healing takes time. Healing takes a willingness to do things differently than we have done. It will likely take multiple sessions and a few dietary and lifestyle changes. If you’re like me and you’ve already made many dietary and lifestyle changes and still are not losing weight, this is a great thing. There is hope!

Here is the plan, and I will be doing this throughout the month of July.

#1- Remove the offenders.
I have a whole lot of food intolerances. The list seems to grow all the time. This is pretty standard for people with autoimmune disorders. This week I tested through a list of 336 foods and 61 seasonings. Of those, I can eat, and have available to me locally, 43 food items and 18 seasonings. Now, these food items include things like many varieties of lettuce and leafy greens, so they are no necessarily individual, filling foods. Many of them would go together in a salad and they are almost exclusively fruits and vegetables. I’ve put together a small list of “meal” ideas that I can make with them. Obviously, if a person is this highly sensitive to so many foods and you remove them for a month that person will drop a few pounds and feel a whole lot better. I can attest to this because I’ve done it many times. Just one month ago I did 28 days of all raw food (eating fully raw is the only way I’ve been able to lose any weight since my last child was born). I ate mostly fruit with some leafy greens and small amounts of raw nuts and seeds. I lost 9 pounds and felt incredible most of the days of the cleanse. The day I ate cooked food I went back to feeling terrible and quickly gained the weight back, plus one pound (so far). Several months before that I did a 6 day fruit fast. I lost 6 pounds, which I gained back with the first meal I ate (which was a dinner consisting of homemade vegetable soup, homemade wild yeast bread, and a ginormous green salad). A few months before that I did a 10 day juice fast, I lost 6 pounds that time too and gained it back within a few days after the fast. This did not used to happen when I would do cleanses before my last pregnancy. I would have expected to lose more than 9 lbs in 28 days at my size. My goal is really not to lose weight, its to heal the issues that the excess weight is visual evidence of. I want to feel well and avoid disease. The fact that my body is not releasing weight is an indication of deeper problems.

#2- Working the protocol.
I am committing to spending 15 minutes each day working the energy protocol for weight loss on myself. I rarely have time to work on myself, but I feel I can commit to 15 minutes a day. I hope to go longer as often as possible, as a quality session is about an hour long. If I lose weight fairly easily and don’t gain it back immediately (I should continue to lose after the month is up if this works) then I know that the causes of the weight gain are truly healing. This may be a long process for me, because I have an entire lifetime of illness to work through, but my hope is that this one month will be evidence that this protocol would be effective for anyone.

That’s basically it! I might exercise here and there, as I do now. I don’t have many opportunities to do that, though I would love to daily. I intend to make an effort to get to sleep earlier, I always push myself to stay awake as long as possible because I so treasure that little bit of quiet time and I love to read and learn and accomplish things during that time. But essentially I am just working the protocol and removing the offending foods. I should state that the reason for that is so that my body can have a fair chance to heal. It takes a lot to deal with the constant onslaught of offenders I typically put into my body and this will give it a rest from fighting that battle so that it can focus its energy on the work of healing. I will be checking in weekly to report how I’m feeling and what I’m learning.



The Change in Church Policy Affecting Children of Homosexual Couples


X-posted from my other blog

Alright, I’m about to throw syntax into the wind here and just be raw, because this is too urgent and too important to worry about being anything other than just completely real. If you haven’t been caught up in the adversarial crap storm of the Church’s recent handbook change, lucky you, enjoy the fresh crisp air wherever you are and carry on. For the rest of us, I’ve got to tell you what I’m seeing and it is this-

1. The pain caused to real people because of this change in policy is not to be disregarded. Some of the choicest spirits out there are being tried like mad right now because of this. They are loved. Please pray for all who are pained because of this change. Every life matters. Our Father and Mother in heaven love EVERY single one of us as though WE WERE THEIR ONLY CHILD. I wish everyone to have complete and perfect knowledge and feeling of this. There are no exceptions.

2. There is NOTHING God does that is not out of pure and perfect love for his children.

3. God does nothing save it be out of His perfect wisdom. He sees around corners we cannot. We are children. We do not have full knowledge and understanding. He does.

4. What I have seen to today is the epitome of the prophecy that in the last days men will call evil good and good evil. What I am seeing today is people directing blame to the wrong person. If I make any point or impression let it be this: YOU GOT THE WRONG GUY. God does not hurt. God does not exclude. God does not corrupt. God does not change. God does not tempt. God does not repress. God does not stifle agency. God does not move people to anger. God does not contend. God does not disappoint. God does not shame. God does not deny blessings. If you heard about this change and perceived it as negative, you can be sure where that came from, and it wasn’t from God.

5. The church doesn’t come up with stuff just to bring on more persecution and drive more people away. They’re not a bunch of evil men trying to make us the weirdest possible culture on the planet so everyone else will hate us and harm us. Are Mormons weird? Heck yes! Hate to break it to you but GOD IS WEIRD, the WAYS of God are weird… or rather God is weird to the WORLD. The world is Satan’s domain. Of course things of God are going to seem nutzo here. Common sense.

6. Ever hear Jim Gaffigan’s bit on McDonalds? If not, you’ve missed out on some seriously priceless magic. We all have our “thing.” We can put any name on it, its all the same. Every one of us comes into this world with a weak spot, a specific inclination toward a type of sin. I think the amount of attention homosexuality gets over the others is ridiculous but it happens because its the sin people are openly proud of. My McDonald’s, or we might say my “homosexuality”, is food addiction. Its a serious sin against my body, it could easily kill me. It kills many people every day. All us gluttons aren’t throwing pride parades and wearing tshirts and packing around insignia proclaiming our awesomeness in how much we can put down in one sitting, demanding special rights in restaurants that every restaurant has to serve us all we can eat because, dang it, we were born to eat big! Maybe your “homosexuality” isn’t food, maybe its a sex addiction (pornography, masturbation, affairs, etc) -I work with sex addicts, this is a huge one. Maybe your “homosexuality” is gaming, connecting to video games as an out to life. Maybe its robbery. Maybe its habitual lying. Maybe its making an idol of your body by obsessively dieting and working out and showing it off. Maybe you’re a hoarder. Maybe you just love stirring up contention between people and watching it play out. Maybe you’re obsessed with appearing to be perfect to gain approval. Its all “homosexuality.” We’re all sick, we’re all broken. This is how its supposed to be. It is not okay, in fact its downright a sin in and of itself, to hate someone because their broken in a different way than you are. That’s all this is. It goes like this: We are weak (human). We are in Satan’s domain. He messes with us in attempt to control us, to get us to sin so we will submit our agency. We sin. We have a choice to make, indulge in that sin and stay in bondage or repent and be free. If any one of us turns from our sin, gets the help we need, and repents, it will not mean that we are free from that WEAKNESS, we are still human. It just means we’ve learned to draw strength from Christ via the atonement to keep ourselves safe from natural consequences of indulging in that sin. An alcoholic who stops drinking will always be an alcoholic. A sex addict who stops taking lust hits will always be a sex addict. A homosexual who stops sexual interaction with people of the same sex will always be homosexual. Not one of these people is more or less than the other. Not one of these people ought to be judged or shamed. But also, not one of these sins ought to be embraced and accepted and encouraged because they ALL harm the individual and the collective. We stand up AGAINST SIN ***BECAUSE*** we love the individual, NOT the other way around.
Though my upbringing was to accept homosexuality as a normal, natural, healthy thing, I understand much more deeply now. My heart has not changed. I still love people. I’m supposed to love people. Loving people does not mean loving them doing things that can harm them or take away blessings from them. I give my kids rules because I love them, our Heavenly Father gives us rules because he loves us. This entire thing is about His love for us. He is protecting children from the anguish of being torn between their love for their parents and their love for the gospel until they are old enough, mentally developed enough, to handle it. I see no fault in that, I think good can come of it. The problem is in all the hurt people who are justifying to themselves and the world that this church is so cruel and unChrist-like. That is a flat out LIE Satan is telling people.

To you who do not yet see or feel energies let me tell you this- Satan and his minions are have an all out HEYDAY today. They are about as pleased as they can be and are totally stoked to watch this cascade in to absolute tragedy. They’ve got people committing suicide over this. They’ve got people leaving the safety of the church over this. They’ve got people breaking spiritual contracts over this, who will now not fulfill the missions they came to earth to fulfill, they’ve got the world in an uproar of persecution toward the church.

If you think this won’t bring about the same, even worse, persecution than was endured in the first days of the restoration- WATCH. Watch and see what happens.

As for me, my testimony will not waver. I know my Father. I know my Mother. I know my Savior. I know that there are things I don’t know, but they know. I trust them completely. There is nothing that could convince me that this church is not led by a true prophet of God. When God tells me something, I believe it. I know what he’s told me, and he’s told me over and over and over, countless times. I know The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints IS Christ’s church. I know we’re in the very last days, even the tribulation as described in the scriptures. What is going on right now is part of that, and it is wisdom in God to be strict on this thing. He has a wise purpose, I guarantee it. What we can all do until that purpose is made known is to take up our shield of faith to withstand those fiery darts. This war is REAL, friends. I work as a healer in it every day. I encourage you to stand strong. Harsher storms are coming than this earth has ever seen. The only safety is in Christ, and the greatest safety is in His church, following the Prophet. Its up to you if you will be left standing to greet Christ when those storms have raged the world to absolute destruction and he comes for you. And he IS coming.

Gluten-Free Vegetarian Baked Ziti and Eggplant Garlic “Bread”


And I’m back in the game for a BIG win!

The baby is 6 weeks old now and I’ve finally been making some appearances in the kitchen these past 2 weeks.  Mostly I’ve just been throwing simple things together for dinner in attempt to fill everyone’s bellies with something remotely healthy.  The other day I was walking through Costco, quickly checking items off my shopping list when inspiration stopped me in my tracks.  Ancient grain, gluten-free penne noodles.  Why, I cannot say.  I don’t even like noodles generally.  I did however used to LOVE my baked ziti recipe, which involved Italian sausage, ricotta, Parmesan and a WHOLE lot of mozzarella.  I haven’t eaten it in years.  I used to often make it with penne noodles because I could rarely find ziti.  So seeing the penne made me think of ziti, and that got me thinking about how I could come up with a yummy, healthier version.

That treasured flame I haven’t felt in almost a year was lit.  I spent the next few days mentally manifesting my creation… and it paid off, big time.  The whole family loved it, and that almost NEVER happens!  

Now, I made pasta to feed an army.  I used the entire Costco sized bag.  I regret that I didn’t even look to see how much that was.  I believe it was 6 cups, uncooked.  In the end it made 3 casseroles.  We ate 1 1/2 for dinner, my husband took the leftovers to work for lunch, and I put 1 in the freezer for a day in the future when we need a quick meal.  I love that kind of back up.  So, if you want to make less, reduce the recipe, but it does freeze well and is great to have on hand.


Gluten-Free Vegetarian Baked Ziti

1 Costco bag of Gluten-Free Ancient Grains Penne noodles

3 small or 2 large zucchini, sliced and quartered

About 2 cups crimini mushrooms, sliced

1 head of garlic, cloves peeled and sliced

A few tsp oil (olive or coconut)

2 jars marinara sauce (preferably organic)

4-6 oz soft goat cheese

1/2 (or more) tsp fennel seeds  (to give it that Italian sausage flavor)

About 7 oz goat mozzarella, grated


Preheat oven to 375.

Cook noodles according to package directions, rinse well, drain and set aside.  Place zucchini, mushrooms and garlic on a baking sheet and toss in oil.  Roast for about 20 minutes, until tender.  To the pot of noodles add roasted veggies, sauce, soft goat cheese and fennel seeds.  Mix well*.   Divide into 3 casserole dishes.  ~If you’re planning to freeze any, line the dish with plastic wrap, add the cooled pasta mixture, cover with plastic wrap and freeze.  When it is fully frozen you can remove it from the dish, wrap it in foil or wax freezer paper and store it in the freezer.  When you’re ready to eat it remove the wrap, put it back in the same dish you froze it in, let it thaw for several hours, top with grated mozzarella, and cook.~  To the one(s) you’re planning to cook now, top with grated goat mozzarella and cook until cheese is melted and bubbly, about 12 minutes.


*The soft goat cheese should melt if the noodles are still warm.  If you don’t want the cheese melted in you could also just crumble it on top once you get it into the casserole dishes.


I have to apologize for this terrible photo. My camera isn’t the greatest and apparently neither is the lighting in my dining room.

Eggplant Garlic “Bread”

1 Eggplant

garlic powder

sea salt

Olive or coconut oil


Peel eggplant and slice into 1/2″ rounds.  Sprinkle with salt and let sit about 30 minutes.  Rinse well and pat dry.  Brush lightly with oil on both sides, sprinkle with garlic powder and sea salt, and place on baking try in the oven for about 20 minutes, flipping halfway through.  They are done when they are dry on the surface and beginning to turn golden brown.  

Spelt Flour Chocolate Chip Cookies


I got a little adventurous last night… we had some people over I’ve never met before.  My husband goes to school with the husband, who is new to the school so my husband is befriending him (what a guy!).  Anyway, usually when we have people over I make 2 dinners and/or desserts, even if its people who know me well and understand how we eat.  I didn’t really have a lot of time and am working on simplifying, so I decided to go out on a limb and make just one dessert (they were coming after dinner just to chat).  I wanted something every one might enjoy so I opted for the classic chocolate chip cookie.  After a moment of contemplation I decided against using carob chips and went with a chopped up 72% Endangered Species bar.  Everyone loved them!  You should have seen their 3 year old go to town on those bad boys!

Here is the recipe:

Vegan Spelt Chocolate Chip Cookies

adapted by me from Viva Le Vegan

(note: I doubled this and it made about 18 cookies)

1 1/4 cups spelt flour
1/4 teaspoon sea salt
1 teaspoon baking powder (aluminum-free)
1/2 teaspoon baking soda (aluminum-free)
1/4 cup coconut sugar
1/3 cup maple syrup
1/3 cup coconut oil
1 1/2 teaspoons vanilla extract (alcohol-free)
2/3 cup chopped 68% or higher cacoa bar or carob chips

Preheat oven to 350 degrees F. Line a cookie sheet with parchment, Release foil or just use a non-stick cookie sheet.

In one bowl, thoroughly stir together spelt flour, salt, baking powder, baking soda and sugar.

In a second bowl, stir together maple syrup, oil and vanilla extract.

Add the oil mixture to the spelt mixture and stir until combined. Stir in chocolate chips.

Drop by rounded tablespoonfuls onto prepared cookie sheet (I lined mine with a slipmat) and bake for 11 minutes.